Title: After
Author: Me, Star (
star55)
Part: 1/1
Rating: PG-15
Pairing: Dougie/Harry
Genre: Angst
Summary: After Harry and Dougie’s fight, can anything be the same?
A/N: Dedicated to:
b_u_n_n_i_e_s for choosing After prompt as her prompt for a sequel to Anger
A/N2: My two prompt tables are Here for anyone that wants to take one or two and prompt me.
Disclaimer: Not mine, not now, not ever. *is saddened by this*
After
“I tried to kill myself once.”
Dougie looked up, with wide eyes at his best friend’s confession as he sat down next to him on the carpeted floor of the bedroom. He never thought he would ever hear those words come from the mouth of someone that was so happy.
“When?” Dougie croaked out, voice hoarse from all the crying and shouting he had done.
“It was before we started as a band… Mum and Dad were having troubles, I was flunking out at school, Vic wasn’t interested in being at home and spent most nights at a friend’s house. I got depressed,” Danny said staring straight ahead. “I felt like everything was my fault, that I was to blame for it all.”
Dougie stayed silent, listening to Danny’s confession.
“One night, I just got sick of it, Vicky screamed that she hated us all and stormed out, she ran away for a week. Dad and Mum’s arguing got worse and I needed an escape. I knew mum had been taking sleeping pills to help her and I snuck them into my room. While they were all asleep, I took half the bottle in one hit.
“I was okay, nothing bad happened, but they never looked at me the same again,” Danny paused. “They realised what their arguing was doing to us and to them. They agreed to go to counselling and made me go too.”
Danny picked at the carpet underneath his hands as he told his tale. Dougie didn’t know what to say, he had never known this side of Danny before.
“I got so mad at them for making me go, but I think they thought I would top myself if I didn’t, so for their sakes, I went,” Danny turned his head slightly, locking eyes with Dougie.
“Afterwards, things got better. Mum and Dad separated; they knew they just couldn’t fix it anymore.”
Dougie saw tears forming in Danny’s eyes and he did his best to blink them away.
“I know you’re hurting, Dougs,” Danny said softly. “And I know that it feels like it’s the end of the world. You just lost Jerry and Harry in the same few hours but it doesn’t have to be a bad ending.
“We can give Jerry his proper good bye and you can work things out with Harry,” Danny finished.
“I hated him, Danny, I hated him so much right then,” Dougie whispered after a while. “I never thought I could feel that emotion towards him, but I did and I still do.”
“That’s understandable,” Danny said. “He hurt you pretty bad, even if he didn’t realise he was doing so.”
“I never wanted to hurt him though, I never wanted that at all,” Dougie continued. “After everything that we’ve been through together, it ended like this.
“I just… I’m hurting so bad right now. For Jerry, for me, for Harry,” Dougie chocked out. “I want him to know how sorry I am for yelling at him like I did and for throwing that vase at his head but I just can’t bring myself to face him. I just can’t.”
Danny slipped his hand into Dougie’s, comforting him in ways that words couldn’t. “I know how you feel, Doug, but it will get better, it will.”
Dougie let a single tear fall from his eyes. “I don’t know that it will, Danny.”
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Author: Me, Star (
Part: 1/1
Rating: PG-15
Pairing: Dougie/Harry
Genre: Angst
Summary: After Harry and Dougie’s fight, can anything be the same?
A/N: Dedicated to:
A/N2: My two prompt tables are Here for anyone that wants to take one or two and prompt me.
Disclaimer: Not mine, not now, not ever. *is saddened by this*
“I tried to kill myself once.”
Dougie looked up, with wide eyes at his best friend’s confession as he sat down next to him on the carpeted floor of the bedroom. He never thought he would ever hear those words come from the mouth of someone that was so happy.
“When?” Dougie croaked out, voice hoarse from all the crying and shouting he had done.
“It was before we started as a band… Mum and Dad were having troubles, I was flunking out at school, Vic wasn’t interested in being at home and spent most nights at a friend’s house. I got depressed,” Danny said staring straight ahead. “I felt like everything was my fault, that I was to blame for it all.”
Dougie stayed silent, listening to Danny’s confession.
“One night, I just got sick of it, Vicky screamed that she hated us all and stormed out, she ran away for a week. Dad and Mum’s arguing got worse and I needed an escape. I knew mum had been taking sleeping pills to help her and I snuck them into my room. While they were all asleep, I took half the bottle in one hit.
“I was okay, nothing bad happened, but they never looked at me the same again,” Danny paused. “They realised what their arguing was doing to us and to them. They agreed to go to counselling and made me go too.”
Danny picked at the carpet underneath his hands as he told his tale. Dougie didn’t know what to say, he had never known this side of Danny before.
“I got so mad at them for making me go, but I think they thought I would top myself if I didn’t, so for their sakes, I went,” Danny turned his head slightly, locking eyes with Dougie.
“Afterwards, things got better. Mum and Dad separated; they knew they just couldn’t fix it anymore.”
Dougie saw tears forming in Danny’s eyes and he did his best to blink them away.
“I know you’re hurting, Dougs,” Danny said softly. “And I know that it feels like it’s the end of the world. You just lost Jerry and Harry in the same few hours but it doesn’t have to be a bad ending.
“We can give Jerry his proper good bye and you can work things out with Harry,” Danny finished.
“I hated him, Danny, I hated him so much right then,” Dougie whispered after a while. “I never thought I could feel that emotion towards him, but I did and I still do.”
“That’s understandable,” Danny said. “He hurt you pretty bad, even if he didn’t realise he was doing so.”
“I never wanted to hurt him though, I never wanted that at all,” Dougie continued. “After everything that we’ve been through together, it ended like this.
“I just… I’m hurting so bad right now. For Jerry, for me, for Harry,” Dougie chocked out. “I want him to know how sorry I am for yelling at him like I did and for throwing that vase at his head but I just can’t bring myself to face him. I just can’t.”
Danny slipped his hand into Dougie’s, comforting him in ways that words couldn’t. “I know how you feel, Doug, but it will get better, it will.”
Dougie let a single tear fall from his eyes. “I don’t know that it will, Danny.”
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- Location:In The Rain...
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Star Girl - McFly


Comments
*laughs*
Oh silly me. Reading the wrong one first... *blushes in embarrassment*
I do pudd with angst the best. Only time I really write angst either.
Gosh, that tells me something lol
Thanks for reading!
this was a good angst btwn the two
Thanks! I try my best.
There is a sequel to this as well.
AND IS THAT DOUGIE IN YOUR ICON WITH A LIP PIERCING *squeals before staring entranced*
Ahem. My fic I can say what I want *nods*
Yes, he had his lip pierced... did you not know...?
He had it when he was 17...
Lol, yeah thats true ^^
Uhhh, no, lol.
He should keep it in!! It's hoooooottt, hehe, it's about the same positioning as mine :P
Very true ;-)
I should round up some pics for you....
He took it out because it got too loose
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Haha, yeeeps :P
I would love you forever. *nods*
Awwww, he should get it re-pierced then ^.~
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Nah I don't think he should, that part of his life is over now.
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He definetly was hot with his eyeliner and lipring... but I always do fall for those kinda guys ^^ *points at icon*
Hmm, yeah I guess...
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I have this one of all of them wearing make up for The Ballad of Paul K shoot and Danny look soooo good... ahem. It's not my thing, but if it's done right, it can look great =D
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O.O Serious? Gimmie, gimmie, gimmie PLEASE!!!!
It looks awesome all the time for me... heh. *points at her picture of Frank Iero*
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Uh no, see, that does nothing for me at all. Sorry, but that's just me =P
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Okay, here's my kind of guys:
Frank Iero
Mikey Way
Gerard Way1
Gerard Way2
Welll?
Here's my running commentary:
Frank - it's okay, maybe a bit too much on the eyeliner, but otherwise okay
Mikey - it's nice but he's not got the right type face (to me) for make up
Gerard 1 - that's a good pic, makes it look nice on him
gerard 2 - and a massive eww from me
Sorry hon =/
Haha, kk.
Frank - Dude, it's my favourite out of the pics i sent lol.
Mikey - Yeah, I agree but I thought I'd throw something random in... he looks fucking smexy in the Teenagers filmclip.
Gerard 1 - Yeah, I like this pic too... he's sooo adorable.hot in genral ^^
Gerard 2 - LMAO
S-cool ^^ Each to ones own.
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Oh and Happy New Year Hunnie!!
Happy new year
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I hope it's a good one :D
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It was quite sad, I was very ugh this afternoon when I wrote it.
I hope you liked
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Things happen for a reason =D
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It's very sad, but I loved it.
Nice job hun!
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*hugs*
Thanks honey
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Danny, aw. You poor, sweet, innocent, adorable, loving boy. Aw. My heart.
Dougie... just geewizz, kid.
Awe.
I hurt.
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It just popped into my head and I thought it fit really nicely.
I'm sorry you hurt *hugs*
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This may be badly worded but it is somewhat refreshing (although still sad) to see a suicidal Danny as opposed to a suicidal Dougie.
It's usually vice versa.
Gaah, please tell me you understand that.
Loved this anyway!
It usually is suicidal Dougie, but I'm against the cliche =P
I'm glad you liked hon!
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this was good, i cant wait to read the trilogy, which i'm going to do right after i post this comment :D
Thank you for your lovely comments *hug*
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But I hope they work it out...
All three boys make me sad in this & Anger.
*sniffle*
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Aww *hugs*
Thanks for reading hon =)
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*grabs Danny, locks him up in her closet, and keeps a careful eye on him*
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He's okay now though, that's what matters...
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